Bath-time

As I stewed in the bath this evening, I was playing some music off of my mobile ‘phone. One of the lines, from a Scroobius Pip track “Waiting for the Beat to Kick In”, caught my attention:

"How hard is it to decide to be in a good mood,
And then just be.. in.. a good mood?"

It reminded me of my post from earlier on today about how the weather appears to affect me, especially in the mornings. When I was younger, home life was quite tough for a number of years - my parents divorced and the subsequent ups and downs were hard to deal with as a child. Now that I’m older (and wiser?) I can look back on those times more objectively with less of the emotional baggage associated with the memories. If I had the chance, I don’t think there’s much I’d change. Over the years, I think it is these events that have helped shape my personality into what it is now and fuelled my independence and determination. Sometimes personal relationships or difficulties with work can cause me to get down. The boy I used to be locked himself away and wallowed in self-pity, but now I’ve learnt to face up to problems with a positive attitude and remind myself how lucky I am.

In the future I know there will be periods in my life where it will be very hard to decide to be in a good mood. However, I have come to the realisation that most of the time, my mental state and frame of mind is under my control; glass a fraction filled and all that business…

P.S. The line in the song is taken from the character Lloyd Dobler from the film “Say Anything”